Just give me my due

One of my five brothers (yes, I just love saying that=) came to me this morning, a large pellet gun in hand - and asked me if he was allowed to shoot at crows.

"Ummm... why do you ask?" I parried.

"Well, you got upset with Ben when he killed that Blue Jay - I just thought I ask if I could try my gun at crows, seeing as they are pest for our garden."

"I don't like it when you guys kill things," I tell him "but I know I can't tell you not to. So all I ask is that you give me the feathers if you do kill something - but I'm not asking you to try it - just if you do."

"If that's so, then why did you get so upset with Ben and the Blue Jay?"

"The reason was, he just buried the bird, didn't even think of giving me the feathers! I was shocked and upset for that sole reason."

       I love feathers, natural looking feathers. I make earrings out of them. But all I have right now are duck feathers (from my ducks) and some chicken feathers. A Jays blue feathers would have been amazing - and if the boys ever get a crow - well, I'll secretly morn the loss of a free and beautiful bird (aye - I think crows and ravens are beautiful) but will be glad that I will have more to sell.

LIFE

Life

It tends to leave you standing in the middle of life's roadway, amongst all of the settling dust swirling around you.

Most things happen fast, and you're left just standing (or most of the time slumped) there, or, it-just-won't-ennnnddddd!

But what to do. When things go wrong? What do you do when your mom's baby dies? What do you do when your dad is ill? What do you do when the whole house is a emotional tangled mess? What do you do when you don't know were your feet are leading you?

So many times I catch myself falling into despair- don't want to leave the house, don't want to talk to any body, or respond to emails. Put on a fake face and go about my day. But afterwards. I myself feel fake.

"Put it away! Throw the mask of pettiness away forever!" I tell myself. "Let people see you as you are - not who you aren't!" Watch the sunrise, and see the beauty in it, see it set and have it all renewed. Hear the birds sing everyday, day in and day out. They don't stop - why should we?

"I think the only way to get through this life is laughing hard and constantly, mostly at myself."

I now understand this quote by author Shannon Hale and have begun to love it.

Wanna know how to get through life? Here are two of many ingredients:

Laugh. Breathe. Repeat.

Fare welling for a short time... again...

Hey all - just thought I would tell you this time that I won't be on blogger, polyvore, goodreads or playlist.com for the month of April (yearly Media Fast - totally recommend it by the way - even for shorter periods of time). I will be back online on May First.
See ya' all then.!

“...and she turned her can’ts into cans, and her dreams into plans.”

(my motto for the month)

(for those who have my email - I will be checking that a few times a week if you really need to contact me)

Joyous

Medium: Watercolors

This was given to a beloved women, who spent so many years making sure little ones came into the world safely, she was there for four of my sibs, and was like a grandmother to us all. She was stricken with a life threatening disease that has already almost taken her. To our always joyous Toni, with so much love to a adored women that is loved be her hushband, nine children and hundreds (literally) of "grandchildren".

much love,

Portfolio (Last updated 03.10.2012)